Two Transitions that Changed My Life
By Satyena Ananda
When you ask to change a deep personal and genetic pattern be prepared to be tested and to go through the fire. The first step is asking for help. At this point most of my life (42 years) has been dedicated to transformation. It should not have been a surprise to me that when the planet and humanity came to a momentous place of evolutionary shift that I would be thrown into a place of challenge and personal crisis.
My situation was that for 26 years I had been anchoring the Starseed Sanctuary as a center not only for personal transformation but also for planetary and universal transformation. And now the moment of greatest opportunity to anchor the huge shift of ages, a portal in time so to speak, when the energy was available for humankind to change how we have been living on the planet for thousands of years (warring, killing, polluting, destroying nature and species) a way of living that was based around greed and personal power- and Shift to a time, a way of living in brotherhood/sisterhood and Universal humanhood, a way of living based on Peace, Love, co-operation and co-creation. So this was Big for me. I did not understand everything. Actually I felt I understood little, yet my spirit was called. I was committed to participating in the shift and anchoring the era at Starseed.
Plans were made for a three day gathering December 20-22. I was linked up with Barbara Marx Hubbard, Grandmother to the evolutionary awareness movement, The Shift Network, the Agents of Conscious Evolution, and millions of people all over the world all preparing to enter this rare moment in time.
Then seven days before the event began I received a call from my family that my 90 year old mother, living in Ohio, had taken a turn. She had gone into a deep sleeping space, was unable to speak, and was she not eating or drinking. I was scared. I knew that she had wanted to cross over for some time. I was committed to being there for her when the time came. I did not want this time to be the time. How could I leave Starseed at a moment in time that I was born for?
There was so much to do to prepare for the Solstice 2012 Events. There was no one else living at Starseed. It was winter time. The buildings are heated with wood. How could I leave at this critical time? And how could I not go to my mother’s side? It was my worst nightmare.
I kept going into deep prayer asking for guidance, asking to know what to do. The nurses and doctors said, “no one knows how long it could be. People can go for quite a while without eating and drinking. My Mom was taking very small amounts of pureed food and water. The staff felt she was definitely in transition. What to do? Inside, I knew that anchoring this energy at Starseed was part of my work, part of the mission I came here to do and that I would do it.
So, I prayed for a strengthening of faith, trust and love. I prayed for discernment, that if God had given me this mission, I would be allowed to do it as well as be with my mother in her time of need to assist her with crossing over. I communicated with my Mom through the ethers and asked her to hold on until I could get to her. I prayed for help to hold this space of trust.
As things heightened for the Solstice/Birth time, my Mom’s condition became more unstable. People were beginning to arrive at Starseed for the event, and at the same time my family decided to call in Hospice round the clock. It was really necessary to keep calling in my higher essence to help me stay present to the energy coming in, guiding ceremonies, and holding inner space with my Mom at the same time. During the three day event, I experienced an incredible influx of light and connection with all of the beings who were consciously participating in this moment in time. The feeling of love and the birth of a conscious humanity was literally being birthed through us. I felt completely guided throughout the three days and was extremely thankful for the beautiful participation of all who were present. The energy of love, unity and connection felt the same as the experience during the three days of the Harmonic Convergence in 1987. I am sure that receiving this energy prepared me for my experience with my mom and my family.
I was then very blessed to have my dear friend Gunjeet drive me to Boston to be a part of the opening of the Boston Birth 2012 event. I slept at my daughters, returned home the next day, threw some things in a suitcase, and flew out the next day for Ohio, arriving to my Mom on Christmas Eve. My trust and faith paid off and I was able to be with my Mom for seven days before she left for her heavenly home. I was deeply grateful that she did have need of my help, assisting her through an intense spiritual battle of releasing the fear of judgment. On December 30th she very peacefully slipped away.
Upon her departure, my mother let me know of her gratitude for my presence and help by infusing me with sweet loving energy from her hands, from her power center, directly into my hands, into my heart.
We never know when and what we will be called to in life. Our part is to be willing to show up, ask to be guided, and trust that it is so.
I had asked to change a deep genetic pattern that held a belief that things wouldn’t work out for me to trusting that Divine Love and Divine Order are here for me and no matter what, “all is well”.
